Below are the 17 most recent journal entries recorded in Steve's LiveJournal:

Friday, May 5th, 2006
9:55 am	Ur sooooo emo n cool. (1 comment | Boost my ego)
Friday, November 11th, 2005
10:25 am	Don't make fun. Spread the love. (Boost my ego)
Tuesday, January 25th, 2005
2:32 pm	My dream... Is it summer yet? Barefoot, shirtless, cig in hand, and Will Smith's "Miami" playing nearby; Is this not the dream of all young men? I need money. I need to get in better shape. I need to study more and pick up my grades in a few classes. I need a girl in my life. I think the extent of heightened euphoria that I've experienced in my life has desensitized me to almost all positive feelings, or I'm just in a rough stretch. Fuck this cold. (Boost my ego)
Thursday, January 13th, 2005
12:57 pm	Life. So I'm at state now. Things are going pretty good. I just want to get a 4.0 this semester after my dismal 2.44 last semester at Grand Valley. Music reminds me of times gone by, and the hope that I can regain the greatness of those past times. I like to think I can. I think I am finally ready to make the big drive to get back into physical shape again. All this walking I have to do now is probably helping a bit with that, too. I started this entry almost 18 hours ago. (5 comments | Boost my ego)
Tuesday, December 28th, 2004
1:21 am	Hmmm... Tonight was a good night. Most nights I have are good nights. Still, I come home and something doesn't feel right. Something is still missing. I am pretty sure of what I am missing; it's just a question of if I will ever get it. Always stagnant. Always running in place. Never accomplishing the things that I know I can. It's the story of my life. It's all my fault, and it's humbling to know that I am worthless in my present state. Even so, I have to believe I can and will change that, eventually. The next couple of days should be interesting... (Boost my ego)
Monday, December 20th, 2004
9:28 am	God damn you, Michigan State University... Current Mood: cold (Boost my ego)
Thursday, December 16th, 2004
1:10 pm	I stole this from Mike Marker because it looked fun, and I have a fun fetish... Choose a band/or artist and answer ONLY in song TITLES by that Band: The Beatles Are you female or male: "Your mother should know" Describe yourself: "I'm a loser" How do some people feel about you: "I should have known better" How do you feel about yourself: "Don't let me down" Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: "Michelle" Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend: "No reply" Describe where you want to be: "Penny Lane" Describe what you want to be: "Back in the USSR" Describe how you live: "Like dreamers do" Describe how you love: "Junk" Share a few words of wisdom: "It won't be long" Also, that did not produce the fun I expected. It's too cold and my sleep cycle has ceased to make any sense (Boost my ego)
Wednesday, December 15th, 2004
5:37 am	The black list... These people wouldn't exist in my world: Michael Bloomberg Jennifer Granholm Tony George Alec Baldwin Barbara Streisand Robert Redford Dr. (hardly) Stanton Glantz George W. Bush approximately 95% of the Republican party, and 96% of the Democratic party nannies and big brother types taser wielding cops "tax, restrict, and humiliate" advocates Uhm liberty= good free market = good property rights= good big government= bad Drug war = bad taxes = bad Will this country stop going down the tubes? Will I ever sleep again? Will anything as funny as this: ever be invented? Why is their bug spray on my desk? Who knows... (18 comments | Boost my ego)
Tuesday, December 14th, 2004
11:29 pm	Color quiz! Color Quiz! Only the most accurate and ingenious mood related quiz of all time... My results: Your Existing Situation Hopes to obtain an improved position and greater prestige, so that he can procure for himself more of the things he has had to do without. Your Stress Sources Delights in the tasteful, the gracious, and the sensitive, but maintains his attitude of critical appraisal and refuses to be swept off his feet unless genuineness and integrity can be absolutely vouched for. Therefore keeps a strict and watchful control on his emotional relationships as he must know exactly where he stands. Demands complete sincerity as a protection against his own tendency to be too trusting. Your Restrained Characteristics Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity. Circumstances are such that he feels forced to compromise for the time being if he is to avoid being cut off from affection or from full participation. Your Desired Objective Strives for a life rich in activity and experience, and for a close bond offering sexual and emotional fulfillment. Your Actual Problem Wants to act freely and uninhibitedly, but is restrained by his need to have things on a rational, consistent, and clearly-defined basis. And it's all true... (Boost my ego)
4:48 am	I forgot that I am one of the weak, for now... (6 comments | Boost my ego)
Thursday, December 2nd, 2004
6:41 pm	yep... Internet communication is for the weak. It's time to let this thing fade into oblivion... (Boost my ego)
Sunday, November 14th, 2004
11:08 am	A cigarette comes in your bed ! You are asleep in your bed , alone, nude. Suddenly and without warning, a cigarette comes in your bed ! What do you do ? (5 comments | Boost my ego)
Wednesday, November 10th, 2004
12:45 am	Woooo... This weekend was good. This bodes well for next semester. Michigan State is a great place to be I think. Hopefully, they'll hurry up so I can get all those plans settled. In other news, I think I am slowly gaining weight. Also my stamina isn't that good right now. I need to work on those things. My willpower and motivation was strong before, don't see a reason this can't be so again... Winter's got nothing on summer in my book. It's cold out there. A little over a month until the rest of my life begins...hopefully... I find myself missing something lost more and more every day. I am also increasingly fed up with government, the state of this country and politics, and all the various lies associated with the above. I need to fight for my and other's rights somehow. I need to be more efficient in my existence. I need a job more than anything else right now. Damn sin taxes... I just want to see the world, and experience as many different things as I can. "There's still time to change the road you're on" Also, why can't all alcohol be as delicious as Mikes Hard Lemonade... the questions we ponder... Current Mood: optimistic (5 comments | Boost my ego)
Monday, November 1st, 2004
11:23 pm	Random thoughts... -TV is the most annoying information medium of all time. -When phone or instant messenger communications make up more than 90% of your social interaction, you are kind of pathetic. -I want to see as much of the world as I can before I die. -I can not wait until December 18th. -I wish I had a job. -The only person to blame for all of your problems is the same person you see in the mirror every morning. -Honesty and friendliness are always the best policies. -Cigarettes wouldn't be so hard to quit if they weren't so damn good. -I am getting sick of staring at the "Check Engine Light" in my car but never seem to get around to getting it fixed, even when I make the effort. -This weekend should be sweet. -It pays to be organized. -I can't wait until my life consists of learning, working out, basketball, bowling, and partying on the weekends. Could it get any better? Current Mood: content (Boost my ego)
Sunday, October 24th, 2004
7:50 pm	Good times. This weekend was one of the best I have had in awhile. I decided to come home to talk to my parents about my decision to transfer to Michigan State. I am going to try to for next semester, but if that isn't possible I will be going there for sure next year. There are a lot of reasons I decided to do this, but I am sick of explaining them all since I have done that at least 10 times this weekend already. It also works out good as my grade point will start over at State and this hasn't exactly been my best semester So hopefully that whole situation works out well. I also got a new phone this weekend. I guess that's nice, but I don't really care about stuff like that much. It is smaller though which is a plus. I got a few things to be looking forward to now. The last couple of months at Grand Valley should be okay because I'll know that that whole chapter of my life will be over soon. Also, intramural basketball if I can find a team. I think that the last couple of months have been a good experience though. I've learned a lot about myself and about what I want to do with my life. Overall, I'm happy and it'll take a lot more than just a few major problems to change that. Current Mood: excited (Boost my ego)
Saturday, October 16th, 2004
5:01 pm	Hmmm... Lately, I have been doing a lot of thinking. The last 3 months have had such a great effect on how I view life and the world that it is kind of scary. It's like everything has been turned upside down, but not in a bad way. All of the things that used to be most important to me, are becoming less and less so. Most of my worst fears have come true, but I no longer fear them. I'd like to think I am a better person than I once was, but I kind of feel like all I do is disappoint other people. At the same time, I find myself not caring as there are really only 2-3 people left that I even consider friends, and whose opinions I care about. My priorities have changed greatly, and I am finding motivation in surprising places. I have been given so much by my parents, and I just want to make them as proud as possible. After a life of only truly caring about myself and my own interests, I find this changing as well. So many people have done or said things to hurt and upset me so much over the years, but any and all grudges I ever held are pretty much gone. I have done and said a lot of things I am not proud of, and it is very important to me to do as much as I can to change this. I have a lot of things I want to do, and I finally am focused firmly on the future after a long period of being stuck in the past. My performance at school has been dismal so far, but it's all of my own doing. I have dug myself a huge hole and have already put myself in a situation where I can't achieve what I wanted to this year. At the same time, I am intent on doing the best I can. I made my bed, and now I have to sleep in it. I also find myself returning to a lot of the principles I once lived by. After months of spending money like water, I am returning more and more to a minimalist philosophy about things. I'd like to think I am making much smarter decisions and setting myself up well for a good future, which is a good feeling. Overall, I just have more respect and gratitude for what I have, and more of a realistic outlook on things. (2 comments | Boost my ego)
Sunday, October 10th, 2004
8:48 am	It's almost noon but it doesn't seem it. Certain words said with little meaning can grow to mean so much. It all seems to be a symbol of what was, is, and is yet to come. I think I finally have reached the light at the end of the tunnel, though. Now I am off to do my deed, put in another hour of the work no one else understands. To all in the world, perception is reality. Everything is what it seems to all. Understand my perception. Understand my reality. And stop being a douchebag. (2 comments | Boost my ego)